Again,

Again,

The year replays its tune

The somber song

For one is leaving.

Again,

I see hands raised

Moving from left to right

Waving in quiet agony

While yet others enclosed in a hug.

Again,

The sounds return

The people crying

Their feets scurrying

To hurry before the gates closes

The planes……the noise!

and then silence……...

Gone are they who once keep us near

Our laughter's now trapped in 2 letters

Gone are the shoulders to cry on

Our ears now resolved to typing

A substantial portrayal with no feelings and warmth

For none replaces the space you left behind.

29th Jan 2008

haha yes i know its soooo long ago. so?................lol

this is the crazy day me and my uni frens went to do a shok sendiri punya photoshoot at......UNI...of all places..hahahaha, and thenafter adjourn to pyramid's The Magical Theatre for Deb's bday party. And our dear kawan, margaret forgot to bring her makeup kit and Deb's present!...haha. that explains why our faces look so bare in the photos:








the rest of pics..will soon be posted in erh...facebook or friendster, maybe. haha, see lah.

watch my face
turn black with anger,
eyes starring hard
tears refrained,
mouth shut tight
quenching words
that'll send sparks a flame.

it seems,
each turn and bend i choose
is wrong to you.

you guide,
and confuse me even more.

you tell me to learn
yet,
you pull me down
and crush my momental success

the impending harshness,
your words,
your ideals for everything
makes this maze impossible.

Tomorrow I pay my fees, next week I start.

Suddenly going back to uni seems so strange, so alien. Even the thought of it seems weird. After 2 months, past the new year and still 2 months more. How would the classmates be? Would the lecturers still be the same? The Plaza, Wings, the Library. Would I still frequent those places?
Would my current bff's still remain, unchanged? I hope we do=) What about Padi? And Old Town? ….i smell white coffee……

Oh, NO! waking up at 7 everyday!! And the coming back. I hope I get to go back at 3 everyday. Wouldn't it be perfect if they'd schedule for a bus at 4?! It's not fun staying in that out-of-nowhere black concrete jail till 6! Especially with no one to grumble and laugh with. The HORROR!

3+ months of holidays. The prospect of sleeping till past 9 on most day is BLISS; till I wake up and crack my brains figuring out what to do the rest of the day.

Where's your heart?
Where's your passion?
Where's your desire?

I question you!
Take your stand
Take your place

Your not here forever
Hone the skills
Gain the experience

Now get out
Put your hands to the plough
Buck up or lose out!

gosh...some of these peoples design are sooooo nice. so talented! really an eye opener. shaking me to reality!

DREAM FASHION

A bouquet of roses for the Lady
dressed in purple
fit for the Queen of the house

6 stalks of roses
2 for each princess
You, me and her.

Thank you daddy!!

You chose to deviate
You took this path
Your decision was rash
You know it

Your choice was plenty
Advise were many
You chose not to listen
You jumped to conclusions
You hardened your heart
You limit yourself

Why regret now?
Why wish the months retrace its days?
Why hope for second chances?
What's done, done

Why the blame?
Its your mistake
Why the tears?
Straighten up, you sour face

The journey's too short
Don't look back
The candle is dying
Get up, Move on

Don't complain
I won't sympathize
Don't give up
Your stronger than that

Don't cry in my sight
Don't thug on my robe
Don't bribe me
I won't buy it

The life is yours
Its yours to care
Its mine to guide
Choices I provide
You decide
You stick by it

I'll pull you through
Your hands in mine
I won't let go

3 months tooooo long.

what have i been doing all this while? lets see


hols started in mid nov....so i'll start recalling from then.
hmh.........

the day i passed up every single assignment i had, my mum left for sabah with the rest of my siblings except my sister la. aand...me and my friends did not go to uni at the same time, so i did not get to hang out with them on the last day =(......so, me being the 'kuai lui', returned home to an empty house and 'enjoyed' the rest of the day watching tv and dvds. pathethic kan?

then the next few days were none less torturing. the earlier i wake, the more energy i would need just thinking of how i would spend my time. when i was busy with assignments, i had a whole mental list of what i wanted to do during the hols. but when hols actually came, i, being the lazy bum, suddenly just didn't feel like doing anything anymore.

since i couldn't figure out what to do, my parents decided they'd take advantage of my time and use it for their work. so, i had to go everywhere, anywhere, running THEIR errands. well, at least i get paid. hahahahaha

then in december, things started picking up. my friends too started their hols, friends came back from outstation= hanging out!!! then came camp, in mid dec. and my cousins after that. too bad my sis didn't have a hol then....no shopping kaki=( and it feels weird to not shop with my sis. but i still had fun going out with my cousins. gosh, they're SOOOOO tall! dread standing beside them.cis, geram! lol

next was christmas....nothing different from other years tho', and new year......haih......why do we not do anything special, memorable, different on these days?? oh there was the holidays with thc cousins at camerons...funnnnn!


jan 2008: back to square 1. but now with my mum around....can't go around doing what i like in peace. every few minutes there will be the resounding voice calling me to do this and that and everything else. not that i do though...not so kuai anymore.


but, thanks for equally bored friends...we decided to do something crazy! one week we stayed over at stef's, the next week at mine. we can do nothing but talk for 4 hours in that same shop and yet continue again for another 8 hours later in the night!! then stef came up with an impromptu idea: go do a photoshoot at uni! of all places..haha. but thats what we did on tuesday. we even asked marg to ponteng one day of kerja just to be with us...such 'loving' friends we are. and ponteng she did..MONKEY JOKER!!!


then that night we went and celebrate deb's b'day! i absolutely love The Magical Theatre, except that it left my hair smelling like smoke. eewwwww.......................that was 29 jan already

now Feb, CNY!!!! yeah, this year was Good! all because the 4 days of school holidays the government gave my lil' siblings was well spent visiting people and collecting ang pows..wahahahahhah and because I still had hols, i went with the remnants of the FORM 6-ers to visit our friends. ish, why your hols so short wan? tradisi tak dapat dicompletekan. sigh.

there's still my uni friends!! thank God for them, such lovable darlings. went visiting some of them and stayed over at stef's yet again...haha. no reason why.

and 25th uni's starting!!!

SLOW DANCE

Have you ever watched kids
On a merry-go-round?

Or listened to the rain
Slapping on the ground?

Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight?
Or gazed at the sun into the fading night?

You better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.

Do you run through each day
On the fly?

When you ask ‘How are you?’
Do you hear the reply?

When the day is done
Do you lie in your bed
With the next hundred chores
Running through your head?

You'd better slow down
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.

Ever told your child,
We'll do it tomorrow?
And in your haste,
Not see his sorrow?

Ever lost touch,
Let a good friendship die
Cause you never had time
To call and say,'Hi' ?

You'd better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.

When you run so fast to get somewhere
You miss half the fun of getting there.

When you worry and hurry through your day,
It is like an unopened gift....
Thrown away.

Life is not a race.
Do take it slower
Hear the music
Before the song is over.

got this from an email......i think its beautiful and so true.
honestly, do we even bother to stop and admire the beauty of God's creation? not really, right? we just have so much on our minds, sometimes we look past everything and everyone else, we zone of far away, delving straight into our business. then we look back a few months or years and wonder what happen to she,who used to be our close friend.