Felt the pain ravish my heart, again.
Felt it hard, pain and eerily cold.
Felt the tears swell in my eyes.
Felt it roll down my cheeks, uncontrolled.
At all the wrong times.
Then I wanted to release those pent up tears
In my bathroom,
In the peacefulness of the warm shower
But it just won't flow.
I am thankful you postponed your plans to be with me when you know I needed it.
I wanted to press my head into the warmth of your chest.
I wanted to feel secure in your arms.
But alas, I can only be grateful for that little touch.
Better than nothing, no?
Kill me now.