Screaming in silence

This despair

The silent torture

Of wanting and longing

The only escape

In dreaming

The fantasies carving hopes

Hopes that it'd become true somehow

Like fairytales, the happy ever afters.

Backyard Invaders

i have kittens in my backyard!!....no, i'm not jumping for joy. they freak me out. ish..i just have something against fur and fury animals. its creepy.........!!!!!!!! sorry larrrr

there's suppose to be 4 of them..but 1 hiding in the broken pipe. somehow they all like to play in there. they'd pull and push each other out of the pipe just so they can get in....so funnny.

i have to admit they're pretty cute, but still..they scare me. i'm so paranoid they'd come climbing thru my window, i actually close it most of the time. same with the door, i keep it closed. and when i do have to go out.. i shiver if i have to go near them.

once, i was watering the plants pretty near them..the grey one 'grrrred' at me and i jumped back..haha. the 'grrrr' was kinda loud..k lar just slightly louder...then their usual 'miao'.. and the mother cat, sine she noe's my family tak tahan animals wan..always runs away whenever she sees us..and comes back usually only to feed her kittens. but she'll watch her brood from nearby.

i think they're a week old di...at frst my siblings wanted to shooo it the 1st day we saw them..but i had compassion for those kittens..(seeee, i'm not all that evil after all...haha) i guess when they're just born they won't be able to move much too kan, and the last thing i want is for them to die in my backyard!!!!
so thats y they're there!..so hope they go off fast...lol

my model (right) wearing my design posing with her friends, modeling the clothes my classmates made.

random pictures of my artwork:

maggie Q modelled my garment!!!! technically she DID!!haha...i lurve the hair c;)

and random artworks=):

sem's OVER and i'm happy!!!! i would be for this first few weeks.....so many of my friends are back.. yea!!!=)=);)more going outs, more money spent..... but 2 months is no-kidding-long. too long i'd think. gees.....mr LimKW should hire me to help him rearrange his uni's schedule. he prob doesn't realise how his schedule makes his students suffer. let me take u thru a year's schedule:

Jan: HOLS
Feb: HOL till chinese new year is over. then the sem starts
Mar, Apr, May: its 12 weeks or 13 weeks of classes. the last week of may is the last official week of classes
June: 2 weeks grace to pass up asgmts then HOLS
July:HOLS
Aug, Sept, Oct: another 14 weeks of classes, actually with 1 week mid sem break included. then i end
Nov: 2 weeks of grace again and its HOLS
Dec: HOLS !!

my gosh....mr Lim really sucks the money outta us. we suffocate and suffer for 14 weeks or if u are me...17 weeks (haha) then we enjoy for a month and rot the rest of the hols. thus your 15 k (or more)of tuition fees. i honestly won't mind an extra month of classes each sem. more time to do work, more lectures, and we can learn more.

all his brilliance, and these he can't figure out??!! *shakes head*

i rant enough. i shall enjoy.

tagged by xiang ning:

Part 1: On the outside
Name: Shern Ai
Date of Birth: 4th september (now u noe , so....... *hint hint*) hehe
Current Status: Single
Hair Colour: black
Righty or Lefty: lefty


Part 2: On the Inside
Your Heritage: Pure Chinese
Your Fear: insecurities! i hate being alone anywhere, anytime. and i'm paranoid of what u'll think of me after this. haha;)

Part 3: Yesterday, Today & Tomorrow
Your thoughts first waking up: i still wanna sleeeeeppp
Bedtime: Random
Your most missed memory: being with friends and talking our hearts out

Part 4: Your Pick
Pepsi or Coke: they taste the same lar....
Single or Group Dates: both. actually i dunoe. how i noe?! i don't have a bf also=(
Adidas or Nike: mng??
Lipton Tea or Nestea: old town white coffee ...haha

Part 5: Do You...
Smoke: i can't stand smoke
Curse: hehehe........when i'm angry yea lar (ooopsss.......ssshhhhh)
Drink: ...... if shandy counts?

Part 7: Have You Ever?
Played a stripping game: Nope...NO WAY!!
Changed who you were to fit in: sometimes

Part 8: Age
You're hoping to be married: it used to be 24, now no way!.. its too soon, i don't have a bf and i'll only start work then.

Part 9: In A Guy/Girl
Best eye colour: brown
Hair colour: dark purple!!
Short or long hair: depends whether its a guy or girl

Part 10: What Were You Doing?
1 minute ago: Answering the previous question
1 hour ago: chatting
1 month ago: slave to my asgmts

Part 11: Finish The Sentences
I love: music, fashion, art and maths
I miss : my friends
I need: God, family, friends, internet and answers!

Part 12: Tag
aaron, joanna, anna, lydia ( all the very free ppl!)

List out 5 presents you wish for your upcoming birthday:
1. an mp3 handphone...slim, slide, 5 mega pix camera, loads of memory and xtra memory stick...
2. i want a dress form!!!
3. a light blue myvi
4. dinner at tony romas , or japanese buffet
5. more presents!!