Counted amongst them guys

Now,
what if you were a girl, but always mistakenly counted as one of the other gender? Yes, the guys.
hmmmhh..........

That is exactly what happens to my youngest sister A-L-L the time!
because she is the youngest she's got no bed of her own in the 'girls' room.
because she is the youngest she had to share the room with the boys.
because she is the youngest and born after 2 boys she always plays with them boys.

And because of that, many times when we call "Boys!", we mean her too.
Unintentionally, yes. For convenience, maybe. =]

SO you go blog hopping? I do to. In fact I think its a very exciting pastime, good or bad, it depends. If you have assignments and you're blog hopping then, nay, it ain't good. But if you happen to be very, absolutely free, then by all means=)

Why do I think its really exciting? Because I always stumble upon interesting reads, thought-provoking posts, inspiring works or glimpses of friends I haven't heard from for ages! Remember those 'kotak hitam' experiments we use to do in school? Blog hopping to me is like when you put your hand in that tiny hole at the top of the box, then you wiggle your way around trying to guess whats in it, and it usually turns out differently. It's like > *SURPRISE*< at the end of the hopping.

So nosy. Me ? Not that I'm a busy body, I'm not interested at what you've been up to (if you're not my friend), I just like looking for good reads, good pictures and ideas. And, hey, you put that blog up here, its not surprising if I stumble upon it, right am i?

Anyway, its funny how I go to peoples blogs and find out things I never knew, even if I sort-of-knew them for as long as I was in school. Back then, the only conversations we exchanged would be the occasional 'hi!', or the 'could you pick my pen for me please?' and neither would say anymore. Funny. Pathetic.

Then I go on further, and I discover they, who hardly spoke to one another then, whom no one would have guessed they would be at the same place, save at school; now in the same picture, posing with friends whom I know not. No, it wasn't a class picture of any sort. It was at an event that has nothing to do with college. So, they had something in common after all!

I look at the friends list, and pick out a name or two that I think I might know. Sometimes I guess right, sometimes it turns out to be a completely different person, sometimes its people I don't know after all. But even at these certain person I-do-not-know's blog, I find out he/she and I have a common friend! Small world right?

Lemme tell you again....blog hopping IS fun! Just know when to and when not. Self-discipline people! Me is still learning that;)

i haven't blogged in a month!

not that its anything to be surprised anyway. i decided i'd spare u all another truckload of emo posts. hahaha

finally the mad-rush-to-finish-every-single-asgmt month is over! yes, its holidays=]

this sem was really really really bad....i dunnoe what i have been doing cos it seemed as though i had 4 months worth of work to complete in the past 2 weeks. 'nuff said, i barely slept.

if i didn't have the help of my mum and allll my siblings i would never have finished in time. really thankful to them alll....my mum din sleep for 2 nights (not in a row lar) helping me tooo...dahlah the next day gotta drive me to uni to pass up.

next sem's i really absoloutely need to work faster, procrastinate much less, be more confident with my ideas....sigh cos ar, if i dun think my idea is right/ good i won't start my work wan lor.....bad bad. Someone please kick me if i dun work faster n harder next time!!!

They actually have my name=]

not exactly but got lar.

i'm talking bout this name quiz thing.
http://www.blogthings.com/whatsyournameshiddenmeaningquiz

this is what i got:

What Shernai Means You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.
You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know.
You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.

You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.
Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.
Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.
You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.
You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic “Type A” personality.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

quite true lar most of it.... but good in business and academia?.....hmh, maybe not.

i'm dreaming of........pirouettes and twirls, flips and flying splits, ribbons and hoops. Dance is stuck on my mind. A fashion show with ballerina's in my designs dancing down the catwalk fills my brain. The colour, white; the fabric, flowy.

i'm hearing the silent, persistent call of the assignments to finish them before it piles so high i won't be able to see the other side. The nagging worries of ill-fitting garments, ugly colours, cheap designs and burning a hole in my purse. No more will i start work at the eleventh hour.

in front of me, the notes...and my worrisome-confused-questioning reflection. I'm thinking why is it so hard to understand? Why is it so long? Why can't i concentrate?
All these questions of my own suddenly rises again, interferes and distrupts my thought flows. Flying, waiting impatiently to be thrown at someone who could answer it, who would answer it. But who? I wish you'd tell me.

why, oh why do i think so much? why, why, why??

*************
Talking to you is painful
I wonder why i still bother.

Like a knife piercing the heart
It only cuts deeper.
*************

i was just wondering just now, why is it we always say how do you GUYs do this? or what do you GUYS think but we don't say..you GIRLS?..even if we're communicating with an all girl group. weird, no? hmph

10 excuses to holiday without leaving home

1) try to get my photoshop programe installed
2) watch kittens play, fight and meow for their mum, then irritate them with camera flashes and scare them with water (now their at my neighbours house)
3) carving stories and poems and dreaming of masquerade masks then procrastinate again and not pen/draw them on paper
4) oogling at deviantart-ist's work and dreaming about my own deviantart
5) trying to decipher what deb's poems in wordpress means
6) go blog surfing and poking people on facebook (doesn't anyone feel bored..yawn)
7) create photoshoot poses and scenarios in my mind
8) decide to not burn a hole in my account by not going anywhere far
9) google people's names and see where it leads
10) try harder to get all the adobe programmes to function on this computer

ok fine. I'm just lazy. To the extend my tables are not cleared yet, and i took up 3 tables while working on my finals. bluek.
sorry girlfrens, i know we're suppose to go out and celebrate john's very belated b'day and to hang out with steffi's host sis toooo=)
sorry larr...the past week been busy organising a bbq and sleepover,....phewww..glad its over. The food was dissapointing but the fellowship was goood. Not that the food wasn't nice, (it was, really) just we had a shortage of food. We had girls mastermining the dunking acts and i discovered that debbie was isaac ravi's sister. (shucks...am i the last to noe?) and malacca was fun!!! posers!!Though i can't find a picture i look nice in, haha.....gosh, 2 cg outings, back to back, in a week, super tiring wei. Now i'm lazy to upload photos, we shall wait till i find a picture i look nice in. oooh, and THE DAD wants me to sleep already..so, nights!!

*my mind is officially detached from my body. i don't know if i'm thinking, what i'm thinking or if i'm even thinking. there's just so much running through my mind i can't even make out what exactly it is. its just so weird. *

One wonders why on earth did God create mosquitoes and ants and other like insects (PEST). What good are they? Biting us, sucking the blood outta us, annoying us; in short, such troublemakers.
So, ants teach us a valuable lesson about working hard and preparing for the future. what else? What about mosquitoes and flies? Causing us malaria and other diseases are their only gift or am i a little under knowledged as to their other benefits? Do tell me!!


And yes, you guess right. As i'm sitting here doing my business assignment, i'm being fed on by mosquitoes. Thus sparked this random idea of blogging bout this pest. hmh........this i've wondered for years.

One day my mum was talking about my bro eating maggi in the evening. Me, as blur as I am obviously didn't know a thing la. so…...
Me: oohhh….he must have ate in the kitchen. I don't know anything that happens outside the study room wan.
Bro: *looks at me and shakes his head. " wrong. you don't know anything that happens besides whats in front of you."
Sis:*roles her eyes. " he was eating behind you la."
Me:????!!!!!!.........*I totally, absolutely did not realize lor. I didn't even know he was in the room, for the matter.
Mum: *shakes her head and sighs aloud

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA……….i think I just mastered the art of shutting out everything all the time, unless I make a conscious effort to look around!

Somehow, me and my younger brother have this ability to shut things out. My brother shuts his ears to the rest of the world when his reading, or when he knows your gonna ask him to do something. Me?..i just shut everything. That's why I'm labeled the blur one at home. I usually don't know whats going on and what plans the rest have made. Sometimes I don't even know we are going for a family holiday till 1 or 2 days beforehand. Or, when the music plays and anyone ask me what just played, I would usually not know. I can't even recall the tune or the lyrics of what I just 'heard'. It really becomes background music. I hear and know it's music but it just doesn't register what song's playing, even if I know the song at the back of my hand.